I don’t understand what is wrong with me..I have this unbearable hurt inside of my chest and I don’t know why. I can’t understand why I’m not just fucking happy. Maybe it’s the bullshit from the summer finally catching up to me, or maybe there is something wrong with me. I feel like I am literally going insane. I can’t think, I can only feel and I wish I could turn it off like a switch. Fuck fuck fuck it hurts. Please make it stop.
From 18 to 22 you meet a lot of temporary people.
He looked at me like I was crazy. Most of my lovers do, and that’s partly why they love me, and partly why they leave.